If your DP is any indication, you have very different kind of fantasies. Rooted in unreal which is closer to abstract than fantastical.
Nature features prominently, but as a background. It is there only as a revolt against the confinement of what is human-made, you do not truly feel part of nature too, you just hate man-made too much. Your preference of it is relative, because, for the moment you believe, it is less harsh than what is man-made! But harsh it is none-the-less.
Nature is around you only as a vague feeling of non-confinement (being free!); detailing nature, for you, is unnecessary-no flowers or colours, because you are not into it; you desire its abundance and treat it with indifference- take it for granted, like everything that is in abundance- air, sunlight - is taken for granted. It has its value only because its absence would hurt.
In the wild, on a partially gloomy day with take-away coffee in hand- give me the comfort of modernity but keep me free from its perils- and a bunny for a companion! Not too enamoured with human beings! Are you? Your need from them is only of cuddling, not of association. I need love, but I do not lean; toys not tools. Because, among the living, cuddling necessitates association, you would rather have a bunny than a human (A child over a grown human, perhaps!), that would fulfil an emotional need at a much lesser cost for you.
A self image which needs very little extraneous validation because no one is found worthy.
-Pulastye
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